eshda3wa

September 29, 2007

To My Dear Brain & Confidence


I will study harder
I will study harder
I will study harder


Lately I have been feeling stupid, like my mind holds not a flicker of knowledge.
My patients ask me questions and my mind just draws a blank
like I forgot the A, B, C's of dentistry

patient: Dr my tooth hurts

eshda3wa's brain: huh? what the hell is a tooth?!


ok maybe its not that bad, but its bad.

My friends and fellow colleagues say its normal, it'll all come back to me in good time.

Well i don't want to wait for good time! Now is good time for me!

I feel empty and worthless as a professional, and its not exactly the best feeling in the
world.

I have a constant headache, i think all that emptiness in my head is causing my brain to swoosh about and get knocked against my skull causing the pain. (does a brain swoosh?)

I'm lacking self confidence, working a simple case is sending jitters up my spine.

Its so not like me, I'm usually on top of my game (that sounds dirty), I'm usually
overly confident refusing to ever ask for help and getting yelled at by my supervisors for not waiting for proper directions.

I miss my old self confidence, where are you confidence, come back to me, i yearn for you!!

I will study harder, i will graduate this year full of experience and lots of patients
stories for my blog. I will stop having jitters and will stop my brain from swooshing!

I will stop feeling stupid.


I HATE feeling stupid!

Please brain start working, please remember what your supposed to, and please while your at it talk to confidence and tell her to come back too!!


posted by eshda3wa at 1:05 AM

39 Comments:

i hate 2 feel stupid too :S
but it's a matter of time :S
yer slef- confident will be back soon dr :P

September 29, 2007 at 1:02 AM  

eshda3wa's brain, stop partying! akoo nas yaboon yadrisoon..
i dont know if you believe in 3ain, but that could be it..6ageenich 3ain..if you dont believe in 7asad oo 3ain, someone might have sent you bad energies.

September 29, 2007 at 1:17 AM  

Sweetie you're not stupid. It's perfectly normal to go through these phases. It's rmo'6an and maybe it's stress too. Take it easy on yourself =) Allah iwafgich ya rab :***

September 29, 2007 at 1:34 AM  

it happens sometimes...hope things will get better :) just cheer up Dr :P

September 29, 2007 at 1:45 AM  

blame it on fasting

if it persists after eid, then u can start freakin out :)

September 29, 2007 at 2:08 AM  

I think its fear and anticipation that is blocking away your knowledge
Sometimes you don’t even realize that you are nervous…

3al3moom ;p goodluck and stop being stupid.

September 29, 2007 at 2:13 AM  

*huug* aww honney, it'll be ok 3adi :** im sure its just a phase dear : )

September 29, 2007 at 2:14 AM  

LOL!! Pls eshda3wa's brain, start working - I need to go to a "good" dentist :P

It's a phase, you are bored maybe..do something differnt...

September 29, 2007 at 2:25 AM  

I can understand feeling but as an engineer I'm not designing anything anymore I'm just reading up on everything and trying to apply it! Making things work is sometimes hell, but if I can't figure it out I keep trying til I do and then I ask questions! looool!

September 29, 2007 at 2:43 AM  

awww esha3wa..It happens to all of us, I guess it just a phase. Inshalla you will regain your confidence back in no time.

beltawfeej Inshala..

is are worried, thinking alot?

September 29, 2007 at 3:15 AM  

happens all the time .. maybe its just because your exhausted .. i wish you the best .. ooo inshalla you will graduate this year :*

September 29, 2007 at 4:00 AM  

Oh man I hate halfeeling, mal ayyam gabol....o al7een sometimes, but dont worry 3ady..

eshda3wa, dont blame it on fasting, actually our mind works alot better whenever we are hungry..its more active fe ramadan, so la te9adgeen hatha el7achy!!

enty yabeelich ra7a, relax..mo5ech matroos mo fathy..its so matroos gam yethayye3 o ye3allig..sawweelich wakt bas for your self to relax, mo reading wala tv or movies la, just a blank time..I would say go ride your bike elfayer "early morning" bas you dont have one..so drive your car in a time lama mako za7ma..ro7y temashy walk elfayer ba3ad 3end elba7ar..elmarkaz el3elmy fathy..o la tefakreen fe shy, la blank blank 3ala kefech lama mo5ich ye5ali9 blankat, sometimes we need to give our self meaningless time, coz in fact..it means alot for our brain..

make your self eshda3wa blank time..your brain asking for ra7a :)

Allah yewafgich inshallah, o inshallah 5air ya eshda3wa :)

September 29, 2007 at 4:01 AM  

"i will graduate this year full of experience and lots of patients stories for my blog" china that is unprofessional?

September 29, 2007 at 4:11 AM  

swarwar
i hope so!

lilo
or maybe iv been on vacation for too long i need to kick back into gear, that what i think :S

missy original
thank u sweety
its probably nothing
just thought pleading mite help :P

amu
thank u!

joud
LoL
yeah thats the plan

blue dress
yeah im freaking out over way too many things
im sure ill get over it

vixen
<-- HUG
i hope it is!!

chika
im definitly bored!
maybe i should do something excting, get my adrenaline pumping!
that sounds good!

marzouq
i really hate asking questions, and i know its bad, bs madre i really have this thing against it.
bs i would never ajazif eb a patient, i always make sure i know wat im doing
moo wagta i take a risk oo a3atheb eladimi!

dynamic deeds
yep i do worry alot
and inshallah like u said its just a phase

navy girl
allah ysma3 minich ya rab :)

kella late
zaiiin yeet etzoorna!
inta welmadam mekhtefeen hal ayam!
god i wish i had a bike, latgalb elmawaj3!
im not blaming it on fasting.
im gna try the blanking out period
i think itll work!

Hasan.B
ya so?
thats the beauty of a blog
u get to be unprofessional and mean and cynical and it dosent matter :)since no one knows me, and no one knows my patients, so whatever story i share here is in no way going to offend anyone :)

September 29, 2007 at 4:47 AM  

I know EXACTLY how you feel, I'm currently suffering from this really long brain fart. Can I suggest a solution? Pick up the first shopaholic book, Confessions of a shopaholic, I'm serious it's exactly what you need at the moment!

September 29, 2007 at 7:39 AM  

Yimkin 3alashan Ramadhan ? ;P

September 29, 2007 at 10:57 AM  

It's Ramadan :) I can barely TALK correctly during Radaman!

I suggest you time it some give, it'll come to you all back!

September 29, 2007 at 11:11 AM  

Dont worry that stuff happens to me every single day. Seems like we have an epidemic on our hands. The proper course of action would be, of course, for you to send me some tasty homemade treats for iftar. Oh you are just so kind :D

September 29, 2007 at 11:26 AM  

I think thoughts swoosh, not the brain. I couldn't help but picture a car, that wont start. Hmm, you need to to kick start it!

September 29, 2007 at 12:56 PM  

Breaking my heart :(
Maybe relaxing will do the trick..

September 29, 2007 at 12:57 PM  

Losing confidence isn’t always a bad thing. In some people it pulls them down. But in some people it’s THEEE major motivation to work harder and to be better. And considering that it seems to be having that effect on you, well it may not be such a bad thing. Now go study bala blogging bala ba6ee5 moo wakta nabeech it5al9een wityeen tchaykeen 3ala throo9na gabil la it6ee7!

September 29, 2007 at 2:12 PM  

hay hon
there is a piece of news for you: you're human...you have ups and downs..it's ok, give your brain a rest...be vulnerable and "not on top of the game" once...it's cool..it's human
you are sweet, beautiful and brilliant, what more do you want?? :)
:***

September 29, 2007 at 5:06 PM  

I suggest you find the bulbus abrainis that are scattered around your brain. You need to squeeze them hard to get their juices out. that way you filter your brain up from the idiocies it have collected this summer

September 29, 2007 at 5:19 PM  

lol. i love the cartoon! i know what i'm gonna ask my students tomorrow :)
you'll be all right, no worries.

September 29, 2007 at 6:21 PM  

lol ! get well soon Dr !

September 29, 2007 at 6:59 PM  

its a phase and you will grow out of :-P

maybe your brain needs a break :-) take it easy

September 29, 2007 at 7:30 PM  

don't worry, it'll all be fine, they're both going to come back from vacation really really soon, all refreshed and hyped up, ready to kick ass again!

September 29, 2007 at 9:30 PM  

ohh 3ade this will so pass dnt beat urself over it wayid...u see we all need to get stupid in order to marvel at our own genius when we get it back

u know?

dnt sweat u'll be fine

and u r not stupid

September 30, 2007 at 9:49 AM  

You're probably low on nutrition. You need to eat healthy - TRUST me it helps. Ramadan is a difficult time, so you probably need vitamin supplement pills. They really help. I also suggest you take a couple of days off (make it before Eid so you have a longer break) so you can relax and refresh your mind

September 30, 2007 at 10:54 AM  

Uh been there done that, muwaffiga you know ur good it's just a phase, it's just longer with some people Ahem, at least you can look inside mouths and not die

September 30, 2007 at 11:21 AM  

Dear Eshda3wa's Brain;

I know you're probably spending a lovely vaccation under the burning sun at one of this world's most sexiest beaches ever... But guess what? Maybe it's time you went back to your owner and maybe it's time you SHOWed HER SOME APPRECIATION FOR FEEDING YOU ALL THE PRECIOUS KNOWLEDGE YOU HOLD INSIDE YOU!

Yours;
Canc3riaN

Now.... Eshda3wa.. I'm working on this voodooo and your brain will be dragged back to you and you will be not only confident but you will ROCKKKKKK as well :P lol

September 30, 2007 at 1:23 PM  

yesterday i felt pretty

today i dont;/

maybe its the same thing with stupiditY?

September 30, 2007 at 2:02 PM  

waaaiii i hate this phase!! but don't worry it happens to a lot of ppl!

hmm but u know what, u still write brilliantly so i dnt think it's that bad ;)

hope u feel better grl!!
don't worry!! YOU ROCK!!! :**

September 30, 2007 at 4:27 PM  

You are not stupid. And to prove it, you can help me with a problem I'm having lately.
My wisdom teeth are growing and whenever I move my jaw, it makes this cracking sound. You know the sound you make when you crack your knuckles? It is grossing me out and worrying me too.
Why does this happen?

September 30, 2007 at 7:29 PM  

Well, I know this exact feeling and with the headaches too, its probably stress.
The way to battle it, take a break, come back refreshed.
These headaches and cease of brain activity is your brain's way of telling you "You're going through ALOT, you need to chilax abit"

September 30, 2007 at 10:01 PM  

asoom
i ordered a copy!

fayoora
could be!

bojacob
im giving it time and lots of prayers

ren_crow
ghale wel6alab erkhee9!
what do u want?!

n.
any suggestions as to how?

pheonix
lil sis esmila 3ala ur heart!

1001
lol
inshallah inshallah

white wings
my brain has been resting too long thats the problem!
love u loads!

hamza
does that require surgery?

bb q8
i hope so!

grey
merci!

ansam
my brain needs stimulus!

swair
allah ysma3 minich!


princess
i like that, ill look at it as a break so i can marvel at my genius later on , 3ejabnyyy!

KJ
vitamins!
definitely gettin some!

October 1, 2007 at 5:59 AM  

hammoodee
thank u!

canc3rain
yeah brain listen to the girl goddamn it!

um-mit3ib
ummm... yeah sure why not

reem
girl u brighten my days :***

dotsson
could be a number of things, bs mostlikely malposition of the tooth, u need an xray :)

kaos
chilaxing is exactly wat im doing!
too much of it!

October 1, 2007 at 6:10 AM  

hi dr eshda3wa,

sorry to hear about what you're experiencing. i am not sure if this fits but i think you might be suffering from a minor panic attack.

since 2000, i've been suffering from them myself and when it first started, i thought i was going to die. mine were very severe which sometimes caused me to freeze up. i recall in 2001 when i was called to check on a system related problem, something that was a cinch for my experience and knowledge, i stood there and went into a major "blur" asking myself "what the heck should i do?"

i wouldn't wish a panic attack on anyone and i certainly hope yours is just a matter of a passing phase.

take care, dear friend. hope you feel better.

October 1, 2007 at 6:57 PM  

thats probably a result of being over worked honey. maybe you need a break. maybe you need to get away for a while.

if youre not totally stressed and lost, then maybe youre not working hard enough :p its one of the two.

October 2, 2007 at 2:08 PM  

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