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September 4, 2008

The Journey Home



I rested my head on the seat and stared at the city below me getting smaller and smaller. Tears streamed down my face. I remember feeling this way once before, but I was coming from the other direction.

My stomach tied in knots, my fingers gripping the seat like i was afraid my body would lurch forward and id fling myself myself out of the plane.
Every fiber of my being wanted out. I looked for a bright side but could not see one. I looked for an angle i can deal with, debate with, and reason. but reason decided to sleep in that day.
I did NOT want to be here. I hated it. I already made up my mind. I'm going to be miserable.
I wanted to go back home.

And now I'm crying again. Its amazing what time does to a person. This city grew on me. Engulfed me whole. Chewed me up and spat me out. Its part of my being. Its my home away from home in every sense of the word.
My cousin told me you should write a post on what your gonna miss the most.
I cant.
there isn't one thing I can pinpoint and say this is what I'm gna miss.

I wiped away a few tears, and then gave up. No use fighting it.

I closed my eyes and took a deep breath, fiddled around with the buttons trying to adjust my seat to a more comfortable position. None were working!
Thank you for flying Kuwait airways!
posted by eshda3wa at 12:00 AM

31 Comments:

yeah change is difficult when ur used to a place..

about the chair buttons.. hatha illy nag9ich!

September 4, 2008 at 12:32 AM  

7amdella 3asalama darling ;**

o madree shagoolich except welcome home :)

September 4, 2008 at 12:57 AM  

haw 3alamech :(

leeesh!

im sure that place took a large space from ur laugh and heart!

bs why would you be miserable !!

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September 4, 2008 at 1:25 AM  

oh my god I know exactly how you feel when I was reading your post wallah ba6ani 3awarni because I remember the flight "home"!! trust me it sucks at the begining but it gets better, w think of it this way, irm'6an is alwayssssss better fe bladich :)
7amdla 3ala salmtich :)

September 4, 2008 at 1:28 AM  

7amdila 3ala esalama tawha ma nawerat :*

enaty maynoona to fly KA?

September 4, 2008 at 1:49 AM  

7emdila 3assalama :-)
Only time can tell.... give yourself time and inshalla it will all be good

September 4, 2008 at 2:38 AM  

jE
ee wallah kilish ma kan wagta!

dandoon
allah ysalmich
thanks :**

anon
shasawe
el3eshraaa!
goodbye was bitter sweet
bs im happy to be home

jooj
ee wallah nothing beats ermthan with ur family!
allah ysalmich!

fourme
ee wala enthiwalt
bs shasawe ma kint abe anzel transit!
oo mako 7joozat!

September 4, 2008 at 2:40 AM  

I thought I was gonna see a list ;P

7ubeeez, It's so good to have you back .. If you feel like crying that's OK it cleans your eyes!! el mohim you're back for good .. LOL!! =D

ahem, I'm sorry =/
*hugs*

September 4, 2008 at 2:53 AM  

ham ghliga w ham q8 airways?! edadlich esara7a;p

September 4, 2008 at 3:40 AM  

7amdellah 3ala esalama oo embarak 3alaich ishahar.

P.S. I can't remember where I read it exactly but I've links to the Wikipedia article. There are other doctor/serial killer types around. I just found his the most interesting seeing as he sat there and planned out everything including how to dispose the bodies .....

September 4, 2008 at 4:27 AM  

Welcome home sweety :)
I hope you feel better as soon as you see yourself surrounded with your beloved family and friends ..
mwah :**

September 4, 2008 at 4:32 AM  

7mdela 3al salama.. o laish thayeg khelgech shesalfa ;p

September 4, 2008 at 4:59 AM  

ukh hideous.
I hate that feeling... I've moved around too many times and it never changed. "Home away from home" where is home anyway? i've lost track.

September 4, 2008 at 5:01 AM  

Awwww i dont know what to say 7bebti ;/


Heres to new beginnings !

September 4, 2008 at 5:46 AM  

ansam
allah ysalmich
im sure itll be good!

nunu
its good to be back!
love u!

um mit3ib
ee shayfa
chini met3amda a3atheb 3mree

ktdp
allah ysalmic
oo shele 7adik 3ala reading them!
u crossing over to the dark side!

zaboo6a
i felt better the moment i stepped of the plane
its just the saying goodbye part

sh7afana
bs i dont like saying goodbye
bs its all good

batoul
i guess im luckier than u r, cz i know exactly where home is... just hated saying goodbye

September 4, 2008 at 12:20 PM  

DR
thanks babe!

September 4, 2008 at 12:22 PM  

7amdillah 3ala salamtich... oo best of luck :)

September 4, 2008 at 12:43 PM  

7amdelaaaaa 3el salamaaa!!
and god please dont say that im gunna go through it soon :S

September 4, 2008 at 1:13 PM  

Aww, hope ypu're feeling better by now :(

September 4, 2008 at 1:21 PM  

7mdellah 3la elsalamah
It gets better with time :)
I bet your feeling better now ^_^

and why did you fly Kuwait Airways?

September 4, 2008 at 1:43 PM  

Hope it's better than you thought now that your here... welcome home sweets;p

September 4, 2008 at 2:07 PM  

Now you have beautiful memories to remember always :)
el7emdella 3ala esalama :*

September 4, 2008 at 2:32 PM  

*Hug*

September 4, 2008 at 2:56 PM  

o ana agool wesh feeha alkuwait mnawrah
ashoof nooraha o ana hena bls3oodiyah
3shan eshd3wa 7biibt galbi wa9lt blslamah :D:D


al7amdallah 3al slamah

September 4, 2008 at 3:47 PM  

WELCOME BACK :D

September 4, 2008 at 11:22 PM  

Goodbyes are sad really , i hate it everytime i have to go home , i miss kuwait so much ..

September 5, 2008 at 11:51 AM  

Welcome back.. welhamdilla 3ala el salama and Mubarak 3laich el shahar..

September 5, 2008 at 11:52 AM  

LOL those buttons can never get us comfortable, imagine this I spent the entire flight with no sleep. So I had in fact been awake for more than 24 hrs ;/

Anyways 7emdella 3al salama girl :)

September 5, 2008 at 10:05 PM  

Its just one of those things that you have deal with when you get home, you can't do anything about it but adjusting to it is important that is what you have to do..

finding the right routine to relax and enjoy yourself! I hope you can adjust and get better..

September 6, 2008 at 3:33 PM  

Welcome back girl :)

Loved your post alot

September 7, 2008 at 1:51 AM  

shway sad, but your definately going back to visit for sure :) not the end, just the beginning

September 8, 2008 at 5:01 PM  

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