eshda3wa

January 4, 2009

Anguish




She was in rehab for four months

She reached her target weight

She was smiling again

I thought the nightmare was finally over.

We can be happy again

We can be a family

I can finally pay attention to the rest of her siblings.

But our happiness was short lived.

Shes starving herself again, its worse this time.

She picked up habits from the girls she was with.

Shes pulling her hair out.

Slitting her wrists.

She tried to commit suicide twice.

She's only eleven years old.

Eleven.

Do you remember what you were like at eleven?

Sometimes I feel like killing her myself

Sometimes I feel like killing myself.

I live in fear of the day when id do either.



*will tell you the full story once i stop crying*
posted by eshda3wa at 12:10 AM

34 Comments:

:( why like this!? take it easy sweet heart

January 4, 2009 at 12:12 AM  

omg!!

this is so bad =S

allah y3eenha =S

January 4, 2009 at 12:19 AM  

!!!

she's just eleven!

la elaha ela allah!

January 4, 2009 at 12:19 AM  

a teenage boy, hasn't eaten ANYTHING in six months, doctors say his organs are eating themselves, his heart rate is getting slower bye the day.. he could drop dead any minute.. and there is nothing anyone can do about it..

January 4, 2009 at 12:22 AM  

awhh eshda3wa dont cry :(

January 4, 2009 at 12:23 AM  

oh dear god this is a true story?!?! Let it out habibi, email me if you need a sounding board. take it easy habibi

January 4, 2009 at 12:36 AM  

=[

That was depressing ='[

I remember what it was like being eleven.. Happy, carefree and innocent! Oo that's why it saddens me to realise not everyone was.. Min kether ma kan el sho3or 7elo wil thkrayat 7elwa.

January 4, 2009 at 12:57 AM  

One of my biggest weaknesses is when a girl cries so please stop :)

And Inshallah Allah guides you.

January 4, 2009 at 12:58 AM  

salamat o matshoof shar enshalla, i really feel sorry for her, as the best thing you could is to be with her at all times... she needs to be with family to get better inshalla

January 4, 2009 at 1:18 AM  

Ohhh god!
I dunno what to say..
did u write this?
:(

January 4, 2009 at 1:25 AM  

OMG !
Eeleven :/

January 4, 2009 at 2:00 AM  

god;\ thats depressing already, when i was 11 i was a pathetic drama queen;p and i wanted attention!

January 4, 2009 at 3:12 AM  

Whats going on? whats wrong? eleven I dont remember a lot.

January 4, 2009 at 3:51 AM  

Sad :/

January 4, 2009 at 8:19 AM  

7aram!! 11 years bs o chethy :S

January 4, 2009 at 9:38 AM  

I got goosebumps reading this. La 7awla wala guwata ila bilah. God help you habeebty I can't imagine how hard this must be.

January 4, 2009 at 10:20 AM  

*hugs you tight*

sorry

January 4, 2009 at 12:30 PM  

crying?
*hugs*

January 4, 2009 at 12:37 PM  

ubay! how can someone who's eleven even understand suicide :/ ... kamlay kamlay i'm dying to hear ... and 7aram for u tears ;******* hope u feel better

January 4, 2009 at 1:35 PM  

omg!

January 4, 2009 at 3:08 PM  

Sad...Hope everything turns out for the best.

*hug*

January 4, 2009 at 3:38 PM  

OMG!!

Seriously... ELEVEN!!!!

January 4, 2009 at 4:47 PM  

7abebty thekri Allah wohwa alQader 3ala kel shay .. kel mo9eeba w maradha tzool ... 3asa Allah ykon fel 3on

January 4, 2009 at 6:12 PM  

I want the story.

January 4, 2009 at 6:19 PM  

11??
omg =(

January 4, 2009 at 6:45 PM  

oh god! i'm so sorry to hear that!

January 4, 2009 at 7:20 PM  

Dear!! what is happening ?? i thought at first that it is a story you've read until i saw the last line!! Plz be better!!!

January 4, 2009 at 7:23 PM  

This is terrible! Allah y3eenha.

January 4, 2009 at 8:14 PM  

ohh dear she's 11?

January 4, 2009 at 8:25 PM  

my heart is torn known it's a kid....

January 4, 2009 at 9:46 PM  

7abeebte 7abeebte don`t cry ah she`ll be fine yaraab

January 4, 2009 at 10:04 PM  

Oh my Godness!!

That's so melancholic :(

Hope she gets better :( :(

Please keep us posted :(

January 4, 2009 at 10:21 PM  

sis:*
omg!!!
is that real, coz i cant believe that this is happening in arab countries, its more like in western world.
pray for her, god will be with u.
dont let her be away from ur eyes
allah ye7fa'6ha.

January 5, 2009 at 1:43 AM  

Take him to a 3rd world poor country for a short tour.Let him see the poverty and hard life and starvation by his own bare eyes ,let him to see the pain of other humen by himself....2 weeks trip to such country will give a gr8 result.try it......

June 12, 2009 at 3:43 PM  

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