eshda3wa

February 22, 2008

Nothing Really Matters



My dad was supposed to have a very minor operation today. My brother and I were supposed to take him in the morning. I slept for what felt like 30 seconds. I kept twisting and turning and had the weirdest nightmares!
I woke up once to the sound of my own voice, I was crying in my sleep. I was a lot more worried than I wanted to admit.

The night before I got into a huge argument with my dad cause he didn't give me the amount I specified to go shopping! I felt so stupid, so materialistic, and so selfish.

I kept thinking of the worst case scenario, How I would give up everything so my dad will be as healthy as he's ever been.
I can live without buying the bag and shoes cant I?
Then why on earth did I get mad at him?

My phone rang at 8 or so am, it was my dad. His operation has been postponed. The minit he hung up I was fast asleep.
I was dead, I didn't even dream.

When I woke up I felt so much better. All my thoughts about being selfish and materialistic vanished, and as I sat across my father munching on my burger I very proudly said, dad I want that bag and shoes!!

aaah life...
posted by eshda3wa at 1:05 AM

37 Comments:

Ma yshoof shar el baba :]

o since his operation has been postponed, then bacher ta3alay masyad el imam el-7ussain [A.S] for 9alat el -ym3a if you can, cuz fee mofaja2a :P

February 22, 2008 at 1:20 AM  

Lol. Hope ur dad's operation goes perfectly oo ygoom bil salama inshala.

February 22, 2008 at 1:25 AM  

Excellent, Eshda!
Have a good weekend

February 22, 2008 at 1:51 AM  

inoor
ill try to make it!
i usually go yam baitna...
zain tell me ma7eb surprises! shino feeeh!!

shoush
allah ysalmich, thanks!

david santos
thanks u 2

February 22, 2008 at 2:10 AM  

Mayshouf shar nshala, ajer o 3afya. I do not ike that pic though:S, Oh and should I say mabrouk 3l kadar! And is that he same mousqe where the terrible gathering occurred?

February 22, 2008 at 2:45 AM  

hasan.b
elshar mayeek inshallah
laish u dont like the pic
my daddy is the asad wana the cute cub!
madre if u should say mabrook
ana kelish moo 3ajbni elkadar

as for the mosque, wallah madre, i guess noor can answer that one.

February 22, 2008 at 3:02 AM  

I'm so sorry to hear that sweetie. I know it's really hard. My dad did an operation recently too and we're all struggling, even now... I felt like it was the hardest thing I had to go through.

Don't be so harsh on yourself. I'm sure you never meant to argue, besides it shows what you are inside :)

Allah i5alilkom iya ya rab o yashfee wi6awil b3omra ya raaab!!

February 22, 2008 at 7:03 AM  

OMG you're really really mean !!

Wain il guilt ! at least 3a6ee il salfa 24 hours !

Which bag is that? 3ashan ashof atfahham il wath3 wala lla2 ;p

February 22, 2008 at 8:57 AM  

allah yeshafi ur dad inshalla..ajer o 3afya..about the handbag and shoes..I can understand!

February 22, 2008 at 9:20 AM  

Eshda3wa I think we share the same profession..I've just noticed Hasan B.'s comment about the kadar..so mabrook il kadar wa law inni lail7en madri il zeyada cham bil thab6..are u done with ur studies?

February 22, 2008 at 9:42 AM  

Ma eshoof shar, alah egawma bil salamah..

You would be surprised of all the little things that affect you at a very important moment. Alah eshafee inshalla!

February 22, 2008 at 9:55 AM  

hehehehe mako fayda sij bnayya. ma yshof shar ur dad

February 22, 2008 at 10:22 AM  

So you didn't learn anything : P

February 22, 2008 at 11:51 AM  

ma yshoof shar :)

February 22, 2008 at 12:41 PM  

Allah ekhaleekom for each other.
After all material is only material.

February 22, 2008 at 12:59 PM  

heh..why am I not surprised?

Hope that the operation will go on successfully. :)

February 22, 2008 at 2:24 PM  

yesss .. this is life !

w ma yeshoof shar ur dad :*

hang in there and stop worring !

February 22, 2008 at 6:28 PM  

Amazing, I felt sorry when I was reading your post, but you made me lough in the end.

Hope he will be very well.

February 22, 2008 at 6:32 PM  

LOL!!! ath7aktini min qalb!
and for a second there, i was gettign all emotional, and wishing i was with you through this time! LOSER! mal il 7itha` 3a 6eezich!

did you end up getting the shoes and bag?

February 22, 2008 at 7:19 PM  

If your dad goes into the operation... enshallah all goes well and egoom belsalama...
It's always hard when a loved one goes into operation... even when its as minor as their tonsels being removed...

February 22, 2008 at 7:20 PM  

Inshallah your dad will be fine.

This is how we are;p

February 22, 2008 at 7:21 PM  

Nice how u organized the post !!!

raising the drama..then ending it with simplicity blended with lil bit humor

February 22, 2008 at 8:02 PM  

Allah igawma bilsalama inshallah o'ma ishoof shar.

Perspective can be (tikrimoon) a 'kalba' sometimes, but you should be glad you got some.

February 22, 2008 at 10:12 PM  

Hehe, about the material stuff its normal to feel that way but your dads well being also comes first. Inshallah everything goes well with your Dad!

February 22, 2008 at 11:14 PM  

LOL.. yeah life!
we all go back to being daddy's little girl as soon as things go back to normal
allah yshafeeh o ykhaleeh lokom ya rab
o mayshoof shar inshalah

February 23, 2008 at 12:15 AM  

makes you appreciate every little thing, salamat to your father. Be there, believe me, he already thought about those moments and how its gonna turn out, go for a score and grant him success with good deeds, he deserve it.

February 23, 2008 at 12:52 AM  

ma yshoof shar.. and u know, u'll always want a new bag and shoes :)

hope his op goes fine!

February 23, 2008 at 6:38 AM  

Inshalla mako ella el3afia o alla yegawma bessalama inshalla :-)

matshofoon shar

February 23, 2008 at 7:31 AM  

tsk tsk tsk :P

February 23, 2008 at 1:42 PM  

Mayshoof shar inshallah.

Your post had resonated a particular "event" that happened to me.

February 23, 2008 at 1:48 PM  

hehehhe GIRLS ;p

February 23, 2008 at 3:06 PM  

hey ,

how is he now and did u get the bag and shoes little spoiled brat :P ??

February 23, 2008 at 6:16 PM  

hehehe girl no matter what i only know that life goes on ..

i really hope that your dad's operation would go well oo inshala ma yshoof shr ..

February 23, 2008 at 11:14 PM  

Inshalla ma yshoof shar :)

LOL @ shoes

February 24, 2008 at 9:36 AM  

salamaaaaaaaaat

February 28, 2008 at 9:06 AM  

first of all everyone love to have everything :)
second, allah y5alilij ur dad o ya7fethah mn kel shar
P.S: u can get all what u want if u know how to ask smartly :)
Be smart and play right

February 29, 2008 at 12:27 PM  

ahaha right on.

August 23, 2008 at 4:09 PM  

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