February 22, 2008
Nothing Really Matters
My dad was supposed to have a very minor operation today. My brother and I were supposed to take him in the morning. I slept for what felt like 30 seconds. I kept twisting and turning and had the weirdest nightmares!
I woke up once to the sound of my own voice, I was crying in my sleep. I was a lot more worried than I wanted to admit.
The night before I got into a huge argument with my dad cause he didn't give me the amount I specified to go shopping! I felt so stupid, so materialistic, and so selfish.
I kept thinking of the worst case scenario, How I would give up everything so my dad will be as healthy as he's ever been.
I can live without buying the bag and shoes cant I?
Then why on earth did I get mad at him?
My phone rang at 8 or so am, it was my dad. His operation has been postponed. The minit he hung up I was fast asleep.
I was dead, I didn't even dream.
When I woke up I felt so much better. All my thoughts about being selfish and materialistic vanished, and as I sat across my father munching on my burger I very proudly said, dad I want that bag and shoes!!