eshda3wa

July 9, 2008

Between Them



i always wanted to sleep in their bed.
between them
next to her
next to him
but they never let me
it never happened
no where in my mind exist a memory of me
nuzzled up between them
the safest place in the world
and now i am between them
but its not safe
its a war zone
and when night comes
and i have to get in bed
get between them
I am afraid,
I dread the moment my skin touches the soft covers
my head gently placed upon the pillow
I dread the smell of my sweet scented hair.
I wait for the sun to come up
my skin crawling
I need to get out
but I cant
I'm the prisoner of my own desires.
posted by eshda3wa at 12:00 AM

37 Comments:

AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW
VERY NICE AND SAD :( , :) << COZ ITS NICE AND SAD GET IT :p
LOOOOL

July 9, 2008 at 12:34 AM  

hmm.. what's troubling you? what are those hidden desires?! I sometimes loathe the idea of going to sleep because once I place my head on the pillow my mind starts ticking, the past - the present and the future.. I hate it

July 9, 2008 at 12:35 AM  

is this fiction?

r u talking about ur parents?

???

July 9, 2008 at 12:36 AM  

ain't we all sista!

July 9, 2008 at 12:40 AM  

beebooo
lol
:*

chika
exactly
too much thinking

DR
i think id rather let u wonder

silver
ekh

July 9, 2008 at 12:46 AM  

:/

July 9, 2008 at 1:19 AM  

fourme
:*

July 9, 2008 at 1:46 AM  

7abeeeeebti :* *HUG* I know how you feel babe im there too.

July 9, 2008 at 3:44 AM  

Creative :)
Sometimes in bed under the covers is the safest and most peaceful place to be, other times it's just awful because you get to think about things you want to put behind you.

July 9, 2008 at 4:39 AM  

you write so beautifully.

July 9, 2008 at 5:12 AM  

oooooh how sad

July 9, 2008 at 6:56 AM  

sometimes thinking is a bitch!

July 9, 2008 at 7:56 AM  

liked the poem i feel you.

July 9, 2008 at 8:48 AM  

That has a very very very mysterious vibe.... awesome!

July 9, 2008 at 9:30 AM  

*hugs*

July 9, 2008 at 12:09 PM  

Everyone should feel safe ^^

July 9, 2008 at 12:42 PM  

Very powerful!

I hope things get better.. :)

July 9, 2008 at 12:56 PM  

**HUG** :)

cheer up! :)

July 9, 2008 at 1:00 PM  

ur parents ? why is it not safe any more:/

July 9, 2008 at 1:48 PM  

My favorite lines:

I wait for the sun to come up
my skin crawling
I need to get out
but I cant
I'm the prisoner of my own desires.

July 9, 2008 at 6:12 PM  

huh i'm kind of lost in here!! :/
drink redbull will give u wings!

July 9, 2008 at 7:15 PM  

jus leave

July 9, 2008 at 8:07 PM  

The worst thing is when they both exist but not together, you'd live the life of an orphan without being an orphan, can't have either of them when they both are here, screwed up.

July 9, 2008 at 11:37 PM  

eee i get that too most times, it sucks! reminds me of that nicole kidman bed drowning scene in ''the hours''

July 10, 2008 at 1:24 AM  

Really nice words...but I still cant get it!!!

Bas 7elow =)

July 10, 2008 at 3:43 AM  

yekhrebaaaita ;p

July 10, 2008 at 8:55 AM  

:( ....

July 10, 2008 at 10:12 AM  

woah! i haven't read something that well-written in a long time. The emotions are just bursting everywhere.
Love it

July 10, 2008 at 11:11 AM  

where did this come from....and what's it about?????

July 10, 2008 at 2:51 PM  

or 3ala golat Sarah McLachlan "I am drunk in my desire"

Nice post!

July 10, 2008 at 7:12 PM  

beautifully written i loved it, bs u mean ur parents sa7?

July 10, 2008 at 10:18 PM  

very touching.. in a sad way

July 10, 2008 at 11:06 PM  

eul
*HUG*

aurous
its a struggle

batoul
thanks

big pearls
;)

soul
it is!

paula
thank u

hamitaf
glad u likd it

inoor
*hug*

g
too bad not everybody does

irise
me too

dandoon
*hug*

shahad
that life

July 11, 2008 at 12:43 AM  

ame
glad u enjoyed it

zam
redbull wont solve this

blasha
cant

themcode
yes it is

hamood
exactly!

km
atleast u think its 7elo

chowwies
bait mino :p

July 11, 2008 at 12:48 AM  

grey
:(

jawa
gladu felt it

asoom
somewhere deep

ansam
sa7 elsan sarah

enchant
maybe
maybe not

fasti
yeah its supposed to be sad

July 11, 2008 at 12:52 AM  

{hugs}

July 11, 2008 at 1:16 PM  

I totally understand, been there done that ... all I can say YOU can never please either, keep your distance and just listen and never interfere, it is HARD but surprisingly time does heal all and has a funny way of sorting things out but it took a reaaaallly LONG time. Allah ye3enich

July 19, 2008 at 11:52 AM  

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