April 28, 2009
Letting You Go
I haven't seen her in a while
her hair tied back in a ponytail
her cheeks sunken
black circles around her eyes from lack of sleep.
But that's part of every new mothers look.
I don't think she noticed me staring at her.
As soon as our eyes met i smiled, and we kissed and said our hellos like we saw each other last week. Instead of nine moths ago.
There we were in a near strangers house, acting like strangers ourselves.
Like we weren't nearly sisters. our past and history so entwined i dont have a memory that is just my own. She seems to be in every single on of them.
How did we get to this point?
i know exactly how. Down to the precise second that turned our relationship around.
there we were sitting next to each other yet worlds apart.
A big fat elephant between us.
neither of us wanting to acknowledge it.
Both of us wishing we could kill it.
But we won't.
The damage is already too great.
So were going to smile at each other in public, and exchange pleasantries at gatherings.
But we would never again be what we once were.
I have let you go.