eshda3wa

November 1, 2007

Grandmother




I miss my grandma
shes been dead 10 years, but these days i have this strange longing for her.
I need to talk to her about so many things. My life took unexpected turns and I wish she could have been here for all of it.

I always had this connection with my grandma, and I talk to her all the time still, and I really truly believe she listens to every word I say, but every once in a while I wish she could actually reply.

Before I left Kuwait I went to visit her grave, I sat there reading quraan and telling her new updates about my life, I cried my eyes out. I haven't cried like that in a while and ever since I've been missing her like hell even more than usual.

Grandma, I don't know if you have Internet where you are, but if your reading this I want you to know that I love you, and I really really need you right now!

posted by eshda3wa at 10:45 AM

27 Comments:

alaah yr7mhaa , just pray for her she will notice that enshalaah

November 1, 2007 at 12:27 PM  

That is sooo moving
Allah yir7amha inshallah and you shall meet her in heaven inshallah.
You know she wants you to be happy, so make the decisions that will make you happy and know thats what she wishes for
As for your previous post, I graduated 2 years ago and I regret coming back every single day, I actualy don't have regrets am just planing on moving out again
It is normal to have butterflies but its because this is actualy a critical moment of your life.
Decide on your lifestyle and plan your future starting now. Best of luck and keep us posted

November 1, 2007 at 12:49 PM  

allah yer7amha babe :*

November 1, 2007 at 12:55 PM  

allah yer7amha.

as far as i know, heaven does have wi-fi, but the signal isnt very strong.

(see comment # 12, http://oreo-madness.blogspot.com/2007/10/tara-mo-3eab-lamma-ngool-please-and.html )

November 1, 2007 at 12:57 PM  

Allah yjma3ek beeha fal Jannah..

At least you've had that kind of relationship!
I never had it with my grand's..

November 1, 2007 at 1:13 PM  

allah yer7amha

November 1, 2007 at 2:06 PM  

allah yir7amha

November 1, 2007 at 2:43 PM  

new bride
i hope so

kaos
i hope i do end up with her.
Kuwait is definitely the place i want to end up living in, its home, i just have a problem letting go. Im sure ill adjust

chika
allh ysma3 minich

ammaro.com
loooool
i read the comment
loved it
el7mdela now im sure she got this :P

glow
yes im sooo thankful for the relationship we had
oo allah ysma3 minik

zi-one
oo yr7am eljamee3 inshallah

November 1, 2007 at 2:48 PM  

allah yer7amha o yer7am mawtana ajma3in

November 1, 2007 at 2:54 PM  

:(. allah yer7amha.
Keep on talking to her every once in a while. Talking to a picture of her at your desk might help. :)

November 1, 2007 at 4:31 PM  

7abibti intai, Allah yir7amha I know exactly how it feels sweetie.

My granny died not so long ago and I miss her so so so much. Her death really changed my life and it took me a long time to get over it.

Sometimes it hurts so much I wish I could smell her neck and play with her hair like I used to and watch her move shake her feet like she always does when she drinks tea.

I want to see her so badly and tell her that she means the world to me. At other times I get really lucky and dream of her. My dreams are always about me telling her updates on what is happening in my family. She never speaks in my dream but I always get to hug her and kiss her so much in them.

I couldn't help but tear up while reading your post becuase I really now how much it feels when you wish you could just touch her and see her for 1 second alive, but I know we will see our grannies one day enshallah in the herafter.

Allah yir7amha ya rab withabtich o yishra7 galbich wi9abrich 3ala foragha.

November 1, 2007 at 5:06 PM  

انّا لله و انّا اليه راجعون
You know when a person really dies? When his loved ones no longer remember him.

Pray for her, and ask god to accept her in heaven. That's the only thing that would actually reach her.

رحمة الله عليها

November 1, 2007 at 5:34 PM  

Allah yer7amha eb ra7metah

November 1, 2007 at 5:42 PM  

allah yer7amha inshallah! :(

November 1, 2007 at 7:43 PM  

your post reminds me of my grandmother - a lady i loved very much. sadly, she passed away slightly over 7 years ago.

i can totally relate when you said you wish she were still around to help you through the changes in your life. there are so many times when i talk about my successes and failures, i find myself saying "i wish grandma was here".

all i can say is she need not have internet where she's at to know that you love and miss her very much. and i am sure wherever she is, she is looking down proudly and smiling at her granddaughter.

November 1, 2007 at 8:35 PM  

allah yr7amha bra7metah inshallah

you sound like u need to talk about something! dont bottle up sweetie :)

November 1, 2007 at 11:04 PM  

allah yer7mha, i do believe that dead people can actually listen to us and can see us!

November 1, 2007 at 11:43 PM  

Allah yr7ama

November 2, 2007 at 12:14 AM  

God rest her in peace ... Its very kind of you to remeber your Grandma after all these years ...but when a time comes you must learn to let go ...

I was raised by my Grandma .... she died in 95 ...

November 2, 2007 at 12:25 AM  

Allah yer7amha w ye'3amid ro7ha il janna inshallah.

November 2, 2007 at 9:16 AM  

For me too, when a person I truely love dies, I just cannot forget him/her. Some people are surprised but there are days when I remember my grandma, aunt and grand dad, they all died 10/15 years ago but still I miss them and I cry ;ike it happened yesterdayI sometimes I feel it's not fair we don't have them with us anymore :(

I know how it feels dear and it's ok to cry and I think it's great thst you visit her. Not many remember the dead. Keep talking, she does listen..

November 2, 2007 at 10:17 AM  

Allah yer7amha ..
I beleive enna el mayteen dyman yekon fee connection beynhum w beyn their beloved el 7ayeeen ..

ana wen ever I feel like I miss my grandma .. a7alem feeha beleil :)

November 2, 2007 at 4:46 PM  

Alla yer7amha.. i hope that sad feeling goes away... and I always tell people.. that you should always be thankful for having grandparents at some point of ur life... there are many people who do not know the feeling of such a love in their life... so i think she would want you to be thankful for her and pray for her.. im sure she can hear you even if you speak in silence...

November 2, 2007 at 7:13 PM  

Allah yer7amha... my heartfelt prayers for her soul.

This is a very sweet post from you. I am sure you are making her smile right now :) She will always be there with you... remember her stories well and you will get your guidance from there

November 3, 2007 at 11:03 AM  

princess
yr7am mawtana oo mawtakom

eng
ameen ya rab

hamza
yeah ive done the picture thing, but i recently removed it cause i burst into tears everytime i c it!!

missy original
<---- HUG
ur comment moved me so much
atleast we had a great relationship with our grannies and no one can take the sweet memory of that away
allah yjma3na feehum in heaven ya rab

qwaider
thank u
i hope my prayers are answered

n + reko
ameen ya rab

the prem
gramas are irreplaceable, the love they provide u with, the support, may god bless their souls

ghasheema
u made me smile
ta3alay wainich ur never online!

missy
good cause i believe that too!

grey
i thought i had
the whole need to mourn her again is very recent!

November 3, 2007 at 12:17 PM  

perfecty
ameen ya rab

shayouma
i dont think anyone can really get over losing a loved one
allah yr7amhum kilhum inshallah

cat
when i dream of my grandma
i wake up in such a good mood!!

kamiliya
yes el7mdela she was there and i got to know her
allah yr7amha inshallah

Kj
thank u!

November 3, 2007 at 12:21 PM  

alah yer7amha, and talking to her does help. I keep thinking about yadity ely tuwafat o yadat umy, we all loved her very much. She loved us a lot as well, you have to be strong and think about her.

alah ekhaleech lahalich!

November 3, 2007 at 2:00 PM  

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