June 17, 2010
A couple of years ago i had a falling out with a person who used to be really close to me.
I cant tell you what the falling out was about, and the reason i cant tell u is because i dont remember !!
I was at the avenues and i saw her.
And in my head i was all oh my god its bessa!
I started walking towards her then halted.
Were not talking!
I waited for the familiar sence of anger when i thought of her and there was nothing!
Why am i not talking to you bessa?!
True we had our differences, but we were a lot more similar.
True we had our rough patches, but our life was full of smooth runs.
True we are never going to fully approve of the way we run our lives, but we can always agree to disagree cant we?
When we had the falling out, were waiting for the other person to take the first step.
But were as stubborn as each other.
And neither of us did.
I felt i was wronged and insulted, and my pride and dignity come above all else.
And she felt she was totally within her rights and waited for me to apologize.
And here we are two whole years later.
We missed so many big events in our lives.
I missed the birth of her daughter, and her first birthday.
She missed my graduation, my first job, my breakdown.
was it worth it?
Are we beyond repair?
How would she react if i call her?
Do i want to find out?
bessa ya bessa ... i miss u
and i love u
forever and extra foreverness
should i call?
or has it been too long?