May 13, 2007

How i Spent my weekend

What have i been doing on my off days?

Studying, studying, and more studying

my roommates hubby is here, she left with him
i have our apartment all to myself

its so quiet, just me and the walls

i havent seen the outside world in god knows how long

and finally today surrounded by stacks of books, paper, pencils, typed notes, scribbled notes, photocopied notes i broke down

just started crying my eyes out
my friend A walked in on me

A: eshfeeeeeeeeech!

me: im gna fail im gna fail its like reading Chinese i cant i just cant!!

( im always like this during exams my friends are used to it)

A: weeeeh eshda3wa allah yhadaaach calm down

No No i cant do it khalas I'm just gna pack my bags and go home!

A called the other girls, and M decided to take care of me, she kicked her brother out of the house and took me in.

So now instead of just driving myself crazy I'm driving her crazy too
the poor thing

My testing anxiety is a major problem for me
i can get high fever
upset stomach
and alot more

its not fun

and i need a cure!!!
posted by eshda3wa at 1:00 AM


Awww.. matshoofin shar inshala! :/ I have a friend who goes thru the same thing. It's the stress and pressure u need to better cope with. We all freak out during exams, some more than others. I really hope u feel better soon, just in time for exams and i hope u do well! Just study wat u can and do ur best. U can't push urself to do more than ur best. Just try ur best oo Allah ywafgich inshala. :)

May 13, 2007 at 1:20 AM  

ya 7araaam wa'93ek marra ma2saawi :s allah ye3eeenik walla o best of luck inshalla :)

just do elly 3aleeki o inshalla 5eer...

May 13, 2007 at 1:36 AM  

awww 7abeebti i can so relate:* exams r beyoooond stressful o as if that stress is not enough, all projects r due at the same time o ma3indich wakt ti6li3een o itshoofeen ilnas! o mashallah ildikatra mumga9reen killish..every paper has to be at least 10 pages long etc etc .. guess who's pulling an all-nighter trying to finish a paper? lol

yallah maboga shay o we're done with exams! good luck babe:*

May 13, 2007 at 1:42 AM  

hi eshda3wa....
calm down alittle bit, and have fun
u know what just leave everything for a one day and go a movie or something
i used to have those moments allot, espacially when i'm alone during the exams period
c; u said it ur self ur friends around u and thats cool!!!
anyway good luck in ur exams
and for the best inshallah

May 13, 2007 at 2:07 AM  

doesn't it feel good to know that your friends are stressed out like you? at least you are not alone.

You know exams are a high season for drug dealers. I suggest ecstasy pills or marijuana. One advice, don't go with heroin :D

May 13, 2007 at 2:27 AM  

awal shay Goodluck in your exams! During my exams i also undrego the same process of anxiety, well maybe with less symptoms but still! I actually invented a song that contains only one word which is : SEQA6NA!! Bes try to look at the bright side, sometimes feeling anxious makes you study more with an end result of excellent grades! O b3dain good ina your friends are sticking with you, i guess that's what friends are for! Anyway ana chini gerargt wayed, hope you get better nshala and best of luck!

May 13, 2007 at 2:48 AM  

sweety you're gonna be fine! :D good luck with your exams. Your gonna kick some major tushie!! I promise :P

May 13, 2007 at 4:25 AM  

install a countdown clock/widget on your desktop to the day you graduate, maybe this will kinda make you look forward to something?maybe?

And best of luck :), in no time you will graduate.

May 13, 2007 at 4:42 AM  

Do get excited, this is good, just like everything I spit.
Last friday was my capstone's final exam. I had No books and No notes. No one even had an extra pencil! (Someone had an extra scantron though).
Good thing I stuck an extra pencil under some random desk using gum. True, I technically interrupted a class, but it was well worth it!
I guess my point is,
Hope you did better than I.

May 13, 2007 at 5:09 AM  

maskeeeeenaaa!!! Take it easy, your going to do fine! Don't stress out, with the work I'm doing I would go nuts bes I'm just taking step by step, and you should study in a group when you can! It used to help me when studying with a good group of people since they would cover thigns I don't know and vice versa!

Take breaks walk around and get something to eat and take your time! You will have it all covered o inshalla you ace the whole thing!

May 13, 2007 at 6:39 AM  

do what I does usually .. just take a shower, eat alot of snaks oo y9eer khair enshalah ;p

May 13, 2007 at 8:30 AM  

I hate that feeling too .. the exams anxiety ..

i will tell u a secret .. during my whole education life .. I NEVER studied more than 1 day ..

except in Physics 2 .. in High school .. i studied for 1 day and a half ..

most of the exams i study on the same day of the exam .. i just cant :p

and most of the times i get through with it .. i pass

so .. dont worry .. just imagine the feeling .. after the last day of FINAL exams .. ra7aaaaaah

May 13, 2007 at 8:48 AM  

Hang in there doc ! You gonna make it , World can't miss a goods dentist like you ! [* wolf prays for you * manamanananananananananana ! amen ]

May 13, 2007 at 8:53 AM  

5anat 7aili :(
Habeebty try working out (walk for half an hour or so) mid-study so that you can cool your head a little and de-stress.

OO ba3dain ta3alai, tara what you're studying is so so so hard for MOST people that it's AMazing that you got as far as you did. That's gotta say something about how smart and capable you are, 9a77 willa '3ala6?! Just keep asking yourself, al7een il baji ili sawow zain bilimti7an gabli they're all geniuses wana bass illi ma afham oo im gonna fail oo 7alti 7ala!!? Come on! Shiday 7ailich oo ma ra7 ythee3 it3abich bithn Alla. Will pray for you inshalla ma 3alaich 5of.

May 13, 2007 at 9:41 AM  

I feel for you... I have the same problems when it is an exam (any exam, even car driving exam) to traveling on a plane.

If you find a cure do let me know!

May 13, 2007 at 10:13 AM  

I remember the number of times I wanted to commit suicide and get it over with, I used to come home and burst out crying, but I didn't. I made it and it was worth it, keep up the good work, then u can promise urself to never take a test again, like me :)

You can do it hun and I didn't have blogger friends to encourage me at that time :P

May 13, 2007 at 11:18 AM  

Sweetie just try to take it one day at a time. Dont freak out!!

Calm down and just try to concentrate on what u have to do and that is to study, NOT overstudy!!!!

Everything will fall into place. Everyone gets like this during exams, but when its over u will feel so relieved.

Good Luck hun- we are all wishing u the best :)


May 13, 2007 at 11:29 AM  

who ely can't?!! you?! can't?!! since when!?

honey you're one of the tough MJ's you don't even know what can't mean, you know you will look back at this and laugh it's just a matter of time, you're smart and strong, it's your thing, you will do it and you will show them, us and mostly ourself what you're made of =}

hang in there sweety, no matter what we will always be proud of you =}

G'luck =}

May 13, 2007 at 12:01 PM  

i dream about it still even after 4 years of graduation.. fear of exams... dont worry tara we are all in it.

find comfort in the fact it will all end soon, and later on when u do graduate.. that frequent dream u have when u come to an exam unprepared.. well guess what, it will be only a dream :) (i dont think i helped, i think i did the opposite here ruining ur future thought too!)

otherwise, u r pregnant eshdawa , nausea , dizziness... :D

May 13, 2007 at 12:20 PM  

Ya 7ayaty *HUGS* this is to make you feel better. I really know how you feel, I've been through this and you know that. We all feel like we are reading "6alasem" when we are studying and we all say that we are going to fail, but no try to ignore all of this. You should remember "tfa2alo 5yran tajedooh". Sis twakaly 3ala Allah w do your best w insha2 Allah you'll pass.

Don’t lose hope. I remember last semester I had this linguistics-3 exam and I did not understand a word "6alasem" I cried and I cried and I cried. I really lost hope, gelt ya bent twakaly 3ala Allah w 8omy 9aly rak3ateen w rabik y7elaha. I did not sleep that night, I went to the Uni. and I took the paper, I was dizzy, sleepy and I could not understand a word but I passed with a B+. When I saw my grade I could not believe it.

Try to take a 3 hour brake on the weekend, go out and do something you like. Trust me you'll feel refreshed and better. Also take at least a 15 min break after a 2 hour study. About the way you feel when it comes to tests is absolutely normal, it is all because of fear (I hate it when my hands get cold from fear).

I wish you all the best friend :D :**

May 13, 2007 at 1:08 PM  

eshda3wa latsaween b3omrech chethe.. el denya mateswa;)i undersatnd that dentistry is not the easiest course but if ur stressed mara7 tegdereeen tefhemeeen aw testaw3ebeen shay! try to relax and think positive. it's only another exam, you've had many exams before and im sure you passed most of them (etha mokilhom;D) and you can pass this one too. try to do something you like whenever you take a break (other than watching tv). try to eat healthy food coz food can affect your mood (high sugar diet may trigger stress!) hmm ... drink hot cocoa.. have a bubble bath.. or have some mint tea, herbs help ;) Good luck

May 13, 2007 at 1:08 PM  

Cheeeeeeeeeeeeer up sugar,,, everything will be okay!! tra mako shy yeswaa 7tta el derasa :P

Laa I mean elderasa teswaa bs ma teswaa twator ;)

May 13, 2007 at 2:57 PM  

Come on Eshda..Calm down..It's just exam anxiety. And it happens to almost everyone. Best cure - take sometime off from studies. Go out with friends, watch a movie (And not alone)..And do not think about EXAMS during that time. Later u will feel good and in a good mind for preparation..This technique helped me a lot.

Best of luck for your exams.

May 13, 2007 at 3:49 PM  

I have a suggestion it works for me,
try taking a break and doing something you really enjoy! like going to a movie or a hobby or something it relives the stress!

May 13, 2007 at 5:30 PM  

Take it easy and calm down , mako ela il 3afia inshallah ....and don't worry you're going to pass your exams :)

Good luck !

May 13, 2007 at 7:49 PM  

nafs il 7ala :D try something i am sure it will work for you :D
CHOCOLATE CHOCOLATE CHOCOLATE ,, and follow that with your favorate flavor of tea :) TRY IT AND YOU WILL NOT REGRET IT !
i know you will gain a little grams but it WORTH IT :)

May 13, 2007 at 7:49 PM  

allah y3eench oo y3ena ma3ach ;P

i always exhibit these symtpoms ;) t3awadat; it's all because of increased epinephrine levels during anxiety

try to relax by walking; do something you love; avoid swalef t7abee6 :D; eat food that contains *glucose in it like chocolate.

* Glucose indirectly decreases epinephrine level

you're a doctor, akeed fahma kalami ;)

oo mofega inshallah

May 13, 2007 at 8:11 PM  

you're gonna do well, I know it, you always make me proud wallah.

Have some hot chocolate.
want me to send you chocolate? I have some from Belgium ... oh.. my.. god... eshda3wa, they're yummy.. absolutely yummy

May 13, 2007 at 9:32 PM  

I hear ya.. the point is to learn so dont focus so much on the exam.. at least that's how i kid myself :p but really just do your best after all your health comes before other peoples teeth i guess :p

May 13, 2007 at 11:18 PM  

elshar mayeech sweety thankx :**

allah kareem
i hate stress

same to you sweetheart
allah bs y3de hal fatra 3ala khair

lost in dubai
hey lost
i do go out... not very often, but when i do i just feel guilty!
and it makes it worse!

yeah thankx man
should i contact you if i needed any?

ee bs my anxiety passes any sort of healthy level
bs allah ykhaleele my friends im driving them crazy and they have the same load of studying!

thankx sweety
i hope so

7aki fadi
actually any indication of time stresses me out more!

yikes i hope i did better than u too ;)

mabe i ace, im happy with just passing (sheesh whatever happened to ambition!)
allah kareem just pray for me!

all i do is eat!
anxiety dont seem to affect my appitite!

when i was in highschool i studied the night before too, but try studying for your surgury final on the same night.. ide be better off not going to the exam!
i cant wait till its allll over!

happy wolf
thanks wolf

thank you sooo much sweatheart
i actually feel better after reading your comment
i will try the work out thing
i think itll totally help :**

May 14, 2007 at 1:59 AM  

as soon as i discover what it is ill let you know

yeah u guys are a gift from god
i feel better reading your comments
and yeah ending it all is always lurking at the back of my mind
and once its all over its definitly never again!

<--- trys to relax
study not over study
your so right
i always think i never studied enough, but your right
thanks hun :**

SBonty onty
my cousin 7ayatee ur words mean sooo much :**
i am a tough mj! i can do it oo inshallah i will
thank u
<---- hug!

umm no not pregnant
cz i dont have a life beyond my books
man i need to get out more (not get pregnant) just get out
and aaaakkhhh meta y9eeer bs dream!

<---- HUG
yeah kela 6alaseem eb 6alaseem but i guess i have to teach myself to just STOP
that B must have felt like heaven
thank u dear :**

i keep telling myself maa yswa ele ga3da asaweeh bs myself never listens
7attan my parents call me endlessly to tell me it dosent matter if i pass or fail
bas ana madre eshfeene im3athba 3mre!

your right passing is not worth me dying early!

yeah going out is definitly on my list now
its always good to clear my head!

solar alcheimest
yep thats definitly wats gna happen now, once in a while atleast

i hope so!

latwa9e 7aree9
i eat chocolate nonstop
the energys gotta come from somewhere!

yeah i get it
and i try
bs its still out of control!
allah ywafgik oo ywafgna ma3ak

do u have to ask
u think im gna say no to chocolate
3ala makhal9 exam bakoon zayda 10 kilos min all the chocolate!

it most definitly does
fighting caries will not be very useful if i have a nervous breakdown
thank u

May 14, 2007 at 2:16 AM  

awwww 7bebty!! *hug*
allah y3eench o ysa3dech.. im gona pray for u o inshallah 5air..
maybe u ought to see smone :**

May 14, 2007 at 2:18 AM  

calm DOWWWWWWWWWN it's just a test. I always tell myself that I'm gonna pass, and even if I don't it's not the end of the world
Good luck :*

May 14, 2007 at 6:19 AM  

awalan 3ashan mat5afeen :P good luck in ur exam :P

o dam i wished you good luck 5ala9 u wont fail :P see nothing to worry bout ur cured :P

if only it was that simple eh :P ? Well for me i dont really care much i usually say if i study and i fail o well i did my best if i dont study and i fail i say o well i guess i shouldve studied :P in the end aslong as i knw "why" i failed i dont usually care bout the fact i failed. Bes i think the fact i've yet to fail an exam makes me go in a bit more relaxed :P

May 14, 2007 at 6:40 AM  

No cure :/

May 14, 2007 at 9:56 AM  

No cure :/

May 14, 2007 at 9:57 AM  

I get panic attacks too :( it's awful...Allah ywafgich o mako ella el3afya inshallah, el7imdillah ur surrounded by people who love you and take care of you, just try to be calm and focus on small things one by one and inshallah u'll do great

May 14, 2007 at 10:21 AM  

*hugs* dnt worry, u'll be fine, i think anxiety is just something u need to go thru for u, and then u bounce back and be fine, its good that u have ur friends with u they'll be alot of help

May 14, 2007 at 12:18 PM  

I hate exams too ...I can't write legibly at speed anymore since I've been using the PC for so, I'm on the other side of the fence invigilating a Vetinary Medicine exam!

Hope yours go well :D

May 14, 2007 at 4:03 PM  

HI, hope you feel better today! Make sure you take breaks in- between the studies and get out of that apartment! Good luck!

May 14, 2007 at 8:28 PM  

Awwww Sweeite pie ***HUGSSSSSSSSSSSSS**

no worried at all... just have faith in urself and remember the last time it happened it you.. and u should forget about it and disregard it :P


all the best of luck 7abeebty!!

May 14, 2007 at 9:03 PM  

thank u 7abebty
see someone professional you mean?
yeah i thought about it, cz its getting out of hand
bs the thought of dropping my books and going out makes me panic even more!

im trying wallah
thankx sweety

ee khalas ana chithyy im relaxed aham shay ur good luck wish upon me
now i know i got nothing to worry about :)

true faith
i know

inshallah ya rab
khal bas ya3de hal month 3ala khair b4 i go crazy!

they are, mesakeen i always drive them crazy
they take shifts spending time withh me so i dont cry myself to death!

my problem isnt the writing, its the thinking!
thankx :)

bb q8
thank you
i do feel a little better and all your comments helped alot :)

<--- HUG

i have enough chocolate to feed a small country
thankx 7abebty

May 14, 2007 at 10:34 PM  

sounds like you have anxiety attacks. medication does help but sometimes, it can do more harm than good. what you need to do is to put your books aside for a day and just chill out.

such things used to happen to me when i was in school too. so, don't feel bad about it. you're just over-stressing yourself.

maybe you shouldn't have a bath while you're studying cos the air might get into your brain? ;)

sorry... cldn't resist. :D

May 15, 2007 at 3:22 PM  

btw, hope you're feeling better now, dear friend. :)

May 15, 2007 at 3:23 PM  

Exams...I just cant tell u how i feel about them! They scare the *&^% out of me and stress me out so dont let that get to u...relax and try ur best....:) ur only human u need a break..i usually stress myself out..which is why i ended up changing majors i cudnt handle the pressure:) mashallah ur lucky u have great frineds that love u!!:) Dont worry..oo gooooooodluck!

May 18, 2007 at 2:02 PM  


sounds like every students lifee!!
i dont even have time to blog .. :( i hate this life!

why cant we all just be born with the education of the woooooooorld!

May 19, 2007 at 2:14 AM  

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