May 2, 2007
one of the things i started is the THINK POSITIVE campaign
Glass half full kind of stuff. No matter what the situation is, i try to look at the bright side.
well guess what, thinking positive is taking its toll on me, its tiring! and requires way too much effort!
its so much easier to be negative!
LOVE THY SELF
that was my first step, to stop obsessing about everything, my weight my hair, my clothes, no matter how i look I'm loving myself
but there are people around me that drive me up the wall
like my roomies lil sister who came to our uni this year, she is the most annoying thing ever!
skinny lil thing, and now shes planning some sort of vibrating needle thingy thing that i never understood (cz i usually block anything that comes out of her mouth) to get rid of her non existent belly
LOVE THY WORK
still didn't get there, i HATE dentistry, i curse the day i decided to come here, its so not the profession for me, why am i doing it you ask? cause i believe if you start something, you have to finish it, and i have one year to go, ill get the degree, then do something i actually want to do, but i have to admit, it never gets boring . Who knows maybe by my last year ill fall in love with it, anything is possible
IF THINGS DON'T GO YOUR WAY
starting with al7emdela, i try to find something positive about why things didn't go my way, its not easy but do- able
Ever since i came to this dump, I'm one angry woman, anything and everything pisses me off, i noticed that about myself and now trying to stay calm
and me not killing the annoying lil bug that is my roomies sister is a great indicator to how much i improved
For a while Ive been going to sleep angry at the world, and i'd start praying for all these negative nasty things to happen to certain ppl, and i feel guilty, so no more sleeping angry for me, i deal with all my problems before i go to bed
I used to bottle things inside of me, never telling anyone whats bothering me, and it turned me into an extremely passive aggressive person, so i had to teach myself how to communicate and actually say what i feel and try to solve whatever it is that needs solving
TREAT YOURSELF WELL
I learned if you want people to treat you well then, you have to start treating yourself well first
YOU DESERVE IT
I deserve everything good that comes my way
I deserve to be happy
I deserve to be pampered and spoilt
I deserve it all
Alot of the time i want to stop thinking positive and start thinking PINK instead
so much easier don't u think?
But NO, i - eshda3wa- don't give up easily, i will fight to get negativity out of my life
until I'm a bubble of happiness :)