eshda3wa

May 7, 2007

Little Girl Why Are You So Sad?





There she sat on the stairs, her legs curled up under her, her hair cascading down her shoulders, hunched over in her pale pink dress, i sat next to her and asked
little girl why are you so sad?



she slowly lifted her head up and said, I'm not sad
I cupped her small chin with my hand and said, but your eyes are telling me different little girl



she quickly turned her face away
so i asked again

little girl why are you so sad?
she lifted her head towards the sky in a silent prayer
Then looked at me her eyes swirls of brown chocolate, i was mesmerized by them
they took you in so deep, windows to her soul

I gasped, my mouth slowly opened by breathing became heavy

there was darkness, so much darkness, there was red, black and blue
there was pain, there was anger and shame

i felt an invisible hand hold my throat

this time i turned away
took a deep breath and turned to her again

her face in her hands

and so i asked once more

little girl why are you so
sad?

I cant be little anymore she said
I have to grow up he told me
i have to grow up today

why? i asked puzzled

i tried to hide she said, but they found me, i couldn't hide

the little girl in her pale pink dress stood up and slowly descended down the stairs, i sat there staring at her wondering what she could have meant

should i stop her?
should i ask?
is she in trouble?

before i could gather my thoughts the little girl in her pale pink dress, with eyes like chocolate swirls disappeared in the crowd
posted by eshda3wa at 5:14 AM

29 Comments:

OMG

she sounds like she is being molested @@

or much worse...she might be pimped!!

GOD...I dont want to jump to conclusions...but I think u should help her any way u can.

crazy world wallah!!

May 7, 2007 at 6:41 AM  

For the life of me, I just don't get it :/

May 7, 2007 at 7:56 AM  

Poor little girl! Sara7a my heart would go out to heart, I can't bear to see sad kids! I would try to do something! At least beat up someone for her, whoever said she needs to grow up! Kids should enjoy their lives as kids for as long possible!

May 7, 2007 at 8:02 AM  

I can identify with the girl. I hate growing up - as much as there are good things about it, the sacrifice you have to make (innocence) to grow up is just too big!

May 7, 2007 at 8:57 AM  

Perhaps she got her period :S
her mom asked her to stop acting like a kid and start living as an adult! I don't think she was molested though, but it's possible...God I hope not :S

May 7, 2007 at 10:26 AM  

شسالفة؟

May 7, 2007 at 10:39 AM  

I can't tell if this actually happened or it's just a peice of writing but it is very touching and the imagery is amazing. Nice job :)

(Now if it is real, don't take it to heart because it's not necessarily something serious. It could be that her dad told her "bass 3aad 9eeri mara"! just as a form of scolding which a lot of us got :D )

May 7, 2007 at 10:53 AM  

poor little thing!

May 7, 2007 at 10:56 AM  

Where'd she go?? I don't like this :(

May 7, 2007 at 11:17 AM  

I don't think Esda3wa's story was intended as retelling of facts. It doesn't matter what the girl meant or where she disappeared to. It's a piece of picturesque that is intended to reflect emotions & details. Well at least that's how I understood it =/

May 7, 2007 at 11:51 AM  

Ok! as usuall i didn't get those kind of posts..

but i have one question: is that a trailer for a movie or something ;P?

May 7, 2007 at 12:22 PM  

How very Christina Aguilera "The Voice Within", I'm not heartless but umm is this like fiction or reality?

May 7, 2007 at 1:12 PM  

nice post :) bs i didn't get it :P

May 7, 2007 at 2:37 PM  

okay i didnt get it.
but is the little girl, the little girl inside u? :\

May 7, 2007 at 3:05 PM  

*grabs a chair and sits next to eshda3wa*

.....

*still thinking*

May 7, 2007 at 3:07 PM  

I guess she must have heard 'Don Henely' sing "End of Innocence" ... Or may be 'Warrant' sing " I saw red" .

May 7, 2007 at 3:23 PM  

mashallah! absolutely beautifully written! wooow i love ur use words, the colors! my God amazing!... very well picked!
the world is wicked and dark.. we can't be little we can't hide, grow up? yes.. we have to grow up...
i love this little girl, i am sometimes this little girl.
love love love ur post, touched me deeply. thanks sweety :**

May 7, 2007 at 4:35 PM  

elegantly written, dear friend.

again, i sure hope it was just a story and not something you actually encountered.

it would be so sad if it were the latter.

nevertheless, thank you for sharing!

May 7, 2007 at 5:27 PM  

oh God! My heart. ouch.

I agree with the premester about it not being the latter...

"i have to grow up he told me"

*thinks* getting goosebumps...

growing up in what sense?? and who is HE?

May 7, 2007 at 8:34 PM  

irreverent e iconoclast

http://telamamaria.blogspot.com

thank

May 7, 2007 at 10:31 PM  

It cud mean so many things...and my mind is going to places I dont even want to think about.

But I have to agree with Ghasheema- it seems like she is being molested by "him".

And the black, red and blue cud mean she is being beaten, too.

And the shame- well I dont even have to explain that...

If this is real- it will break my heart and she needs someone to help her...anybody.

May 8, 2007 at 12:28 AM  

maybe the little girl is possessed by satan?! :D

May 8, 2007 at 5:29 AM  

hey is she being molested? is this real or fiction?? omg!!! this is really saaaaaad!!

May 8, 2007 at 10:52 AM  

to everyone

She is a figment of my imagination

i saw a kid at the clinic a few days ago sitting with her head rested between her cheeks, she looked like she was carrying the weight of the world on her shoulder
and i thought what could be bothering someone that tiny
its still to early for the world to get to her

so she inspired that peice
im glad you liked it
and im glad it made you wonder :)

May 8, 2007 at 11:34 AM  

kids shouldn't be saaaaaaaad :/ They should be playing and making noise and annoying the hell out of adults!

May 8, 2007 at 1:07 PM  

Enigma-
Yeah just ask me and Ghasheema!!! We can tell u all about it!!

Esda3wa-
Well thank God it was just your imagination- U made me worried.......

May 8, 2007 at 5:48 PM  

Ok..
agian..WoW eshda3wa, men wein tyebeen halsowalef...3jeeeb 9ra7a..

you know what I like about it?
You made everybody show the way their mind works, how sensitive they could be , or if they are senseless even when it comes to a little kid.. each one wrote a comment trying to be funny, or showing their concern, without even being sure if it was real or not...amazing!!

You go girl, very smart 9ra7a..I like it ;)

May 9, 2007 at 3:20 AM  

enigma
ur soo right

nonowa
i smiled at u and ghasheemas motherly instincs
i totally love that about you

kella met2a5er
ee shayf my brain creates wonders :pp

im so glad u like it :)

May 9, 2007 at 11:07 PM  

i dont know what i enjoed more, the story or the comments :P

May 12, 2007 at 3:31 PM  

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