eshda3wa
December 20, 2007
Dear Soul
You know when ur in a dream and something awful is happening and u want to just scream your lungs out but no sound comes out?
Thats exactly how i feel right now, except I'm not dreaming, im wide awake.
I feel like curling up in fetal position and just surround myself.
engulf myself in my own arms, and I want so badly to cry, but the tears wont come
I'm too proud to cry even when I'm all alone
Ive been waking up with bruises on my body, like i have been beating myself up in my dreams, something iv been struggling not to do while I'm awake.
So i write, I write to you hoping my words would ease the fist upon my throat, hoping someone would shoulder the burden with me.
Once something is broken, its broken forever. It can never be fixed.
So we keep on waiting, waiting for the world to change, but it never does and we take it as an excuse to stay the same!
I wanted so much not to be like you, i hated everything about you, and here I am hearing your tone in my voice, your words coming out of my mouth, ur logic filling my head.
I hate you, i wish u would just leave me alone!
But i think its familiarity that keeps us together, I'm addicted to you, to your pain and sadistic ways. Its not love, definitely not.
sincerely
your conscience
24 Comments:
love this post! You were missed today
chiiikaaaaaaa
i wanted to be there sooo baaad!
im so so jealous!
WooW, wait..yoba sheno hal7achy!!
Heey thought u would be there today.. yalla Good luck and enshallah next time... great post :)
Hmmm Vweey Emotional!
and confusing.
Just wash your face with cold water.
love your writing , love the post !
Time heals all wounds and inshalla it heals yours :)
You just have to keep moving forward and doing the best you know to stay on your feet. :)
I second Marzouq. Time is the best healer..
But inshallah u'll get thru this rough patch, dear.
“The greater your capacity to love, the greater your capacity to feel the pain.”
Time time time
By the way crying is a healthy habit ^_^
Maybe, for one time, you need to let some of your pride go and let yourself cry. You can't imagine how happy you'd feel after it
dont let it hold you back, just cry and let it all out. you're still human after all... i know that dream feeling... scary... just let it out and things will get better...
shda3wa shda3waa !
"If you cry because the sun has gone our of your life, your tears will prevent you from seeing the stars"
But crying it all out helps a lot! Crying and icecream! Hope you feel better now =)
Sometimes you need a good cry- trust me.......
i hope u feel better soon hun *hugs*
err..ummm...eumm...ehh...."never dose" is sign that you need a dose of ICE CREAM. laugh to keep from crying...awww i know smart bright people are the ones who suffer, so just umm at least you feel and not just another dumb girl with a dead conscious..
My dear ;/ all of us pass by this feeling..
Crying is healthy! Eng.Petroleum
Have u ever heard of EFT? Try it, its amazing!
http://www.emofree.com
Alla yfr7ch w yfarj hamch..
Don't know you, or the reason behind that post, but I just wanted to say, it's a great post. Heart felt. Very touching.
...
I think whatever is going on inside you...defines the battle between good and evil!!!
you are a good person, keep hangin in there sweetie
and keep remember that Allah loves you and remember him...truly from the bottom of your heart...think about allah...mesmerise and as the Holy Quran says "bethekree allah ta6ma2en alqoloob"
I have been checking your blog along with some others...and inshallah when the time is right i will make my return :D
missed ya soo much :***
I truly loved this post. If conscience had a voice then this is precisely what it would utter. The cold bare truth.
I don't know you but I love you and I love your posts. I pray Allah grants you mountains of what your heart desires, keeps you safe and helps you achieve what you aim for.
Happy be-lated 3id :****
KM
eeeeh 7achy kbeeer!
yara
i wanted to be there bs im not kuwait :(
but i look foreward to meeting u whenever im bak!
blue dress
sometimes u need more than cold water
a lil slapping every now n then
new bride
thank u!
marzouq
time does not heal all wounds
but dont u worry im always on my feet!!
this lady
im not really in one, more of a hmmm consince insident!
reloaded soul
then i obviously have a huge capacity to love!!
eng petroleum
or so ive heard!
i do plenty of it... sometimes
kj
yeah iv been working on it
ammaro.com
inshallah :)
um mit3ib
wayd drama haa
disheveled
i definitly got the ice cream thing down!
nonowa
HUG
hammoodeee
my consince is obviously not dead since its set on torturing me!
maikait
thanks babe
i never heard of it but will check it out
merciii
lordraj
thank u very much
GHASHEEMAA
om 7amooooooooooooooooooood
ba3ad 3mri wallah!
i MISS u!!
how are u!
6amnene 3anich!
and u definitly got wats behind the post!
*hug!
sushi
i have a HUGE grin
wallah i love u too!
and ur the only one that noticed it was a letter from my conscience!
happy 3eed to u to
and may all ur prayers be answered :**
deep :)
I read the post ams. I wanted to comment bas I coulnd't.. I just wanna say inah it's so beautiful.
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